7 | New Year

Today was my last day of being 21. Turning another year older, people tend to look back and think of ¬†that they’ve accomplished since their last birthday.

This time last year I was working in a fishmongers, I was still in university, and I had just started two different internships – one with a small distribution company, and another with a community television station. I had just finished a short film that I had made with a group of people at university, which would start a new love.

Presently, I am not working at a fishmongers, I’ve graduated university, and I currently am ‘working’ with a small sound company, more on this in a second. That’s pretty much all I’ve done in the year 2014.

I have just finished another short film, made for an honours student at university, where I recorded and mixed all the sound on her half-an-hour-long film. I’m really proud of how it turned out. It was the longest film that I’ve worked on, and the only the second time where I’ve been solely responsible for an entire section of a film, the first time being the one made last year. Sound is such a scary aspect of films, but no one seems to really pay much attention to it. Sound is such an unconscious part of the film watching experience that audiences don’t realise it’s there (although, that is the entire aim). Being relatively inexperienced at the whole ‘sound’ thing, this is especially scary for me, as I don’t have any expertise to fall back upon if I get in trouble. Yes, I had people to talk to if I had issues, but apart from that, everything heard in the film was entirely my doing. So if something went wrong, it was all my fault. That being said, I got some pretty good feedback so I’m quite proud of how I did.

Back to ‘working’ with the sound company. I say this because while I do work, I don’t get paid. Basically, it’s another internship. This time, however, I actually have tasks that are my own. At other internships that I’ve held, I was responsible (if you could call it that) for sending off parcels or making people tea. Other times I would be doing the same work as the actual employees, but not being paid or it. Neither of these environments are conducive of learning. This time having my own work to do seems, in my mind, that it’s worth my while staying. I know it isn’t, but it’s filling in my time whilst I look for an actual job.

That’s all I want – to be paid for work that I do, is that so much to ask for? At the moment I casually work in the TV studio at my university, which I love. It’s a great opportunity to meet people who work in the industry, create new contacts, or just spend the day working in a place I love with people I love.

So, starting tomorrow I’m going to give myself goals. I’m not going to spend the next year bumming around waiting for work to come to me. I’m going to aim to apply to at least three jobs a week. It might not seem much considering I’m seriously looking for work, but at least it’s more than I’m doing currently (watching youtube all day). I find it really hard to motivate myself to apply for jobs, I don’t know why. It really isn’t difficult, I think I’m just scared of showing other people what I’ve done and having to prove myself to someone I don’t know. Oh well, baby steps. I also want to start making things. I know I’ve said this before, but I really want to start doing something – anything. Time to get a group and start making!

5 | On The Big Screen

Last night I went to the screening of the short film that I’ve been a part of for the past couple of months. I was responsible for the production sound, as well as the sound editing and mixing. Being half an hour long it was the longest short film that I’ve worked on.

The event was held at an independent cinema here in Melbourne. It’s where all the films made through the university are shown at the end of the year, and it’s great to see all the products that everyone has spent their time working hard on. Sadly this will be the last time that the event will be held there, as it will no longer be an independent cinema as of early next year – a very sad occasion for the film fanatics in Melbourne. It’s a wonderful place to be able to watch obscure old films and LOTR marathons.

Despite this, it was an amazing experience. Everyone was dressed up and was there for the films. Also showing there were the third years films from our university. It was a strange moment in the theatre, to realise that the audience were genuinely there to celebrate the filmmakers and everything that they’ve accomplished, rather than sitting through a film just because everyone else has seen it. What surprised me was the amount of existential films being premi√®red. I love being apart of the young filmmakers community, where I get to see other people my age create amazing products that make you think about yourself and your life. Don’t get me wrong, films with a clear narrative are wonderful as well, but it’s not often that you are genuinely challenged as the audience to think about what you are doing and where you are going with life.

4 | Dreams Coming True

Tomorrow will be the fourth time that I’ll see my name on the big screen. Words cannot describe how excited I am, and I’m so proud to have worked on such an amazing film. I’m so pleased with how the final product looks and can’t wait for everyone see what an amazing piece we’ve made.

2 | Making

I’ve always enjoyed making things. Whether they be physical items or not, I enjoy the feeling of looking at something and thinking to yourself ‘I did that’. That’s partly why I chose to study film. The past three years of my life were dedicated to learning about film and television production, which at the end has left me wanting to make everything that I possibly can.

Unfortunately, this doesn’t happen for many reasons. In order to make things, you generally need money. Being a student, I only had a part time job, and what money I had went on a car. By graduation I didn’t have any sort of job, and so have spent the past year wondering what to do with myself. It was this wondering that lead me back to physical making. Film making, whilst very much a physical thing in the sense that people come together and bring with them amounts of technology and equipment, nowadays generally only ends in a digital format. Having nothing to do with myself at the end of my schooling, I’ve starting making again.

I’m really happy with where things are going at the moment, but I want to do more with myself. I want to put my education to use and start making films. Even just minute long ones, just to start. Everyone has to start somewhere.